Conflict: it's a battle of the ages. You can have conflict on a variety of levels and for a variety of reasons, but I speak on the personal conflict inside one's own heart.
You think you know what you want. But the next moment you have no clue. Striving towards goals, dreaming dreams, and then it all collapses, crashes. It's a devastating feeling. Waiting months, wondering what should be the answers of life, turmoil rages in your heart. Finally, you think you have the answer. It seems as if it's the right one, yet it's so scary. A response is written, formulated, thought over and articulated. You let it rest awhile so it can marinate, wanting to be sure this is right. It seems so much scarier now then before. The paper is shredded in the very hands that wrote it, who were ready to accept it. We're back to ground zero.
Will this ever end? Will the fear, the being afraid; will it ever cease? Or do you have to take a step into the [very] scary unknown before you'll even begin to feel comfortable?
It's life. It's hard. It's conflict.
This is really really good, Ruth Ann. It was just what I needed right now, too.
ReplyDeleteThe only thing I saw was the part, "The paper is shredded in the very hands that wrote it, who were ready to accept it." The "who" sounds really out of place to me, I know it's supposed to be who because you're talking about multiple hands, but I think I would rephrase it. Maybe, "the ones who were ready" or "the ones ready to"...
So excited that we're doing this again! Looking forward to reading everything! :)